Why Addict










Tonight , my lack of understanding got me hurt 


destroyed by myself to focus 

Drinking up liquor, smoking, Am I cursed ?

 

I should be writing a suicidal note but I’m not 

 and my feelings are just my perspective 

that even a detective couldn't solve, its a lot


Today, I don’t feel. 

I’m in pain 

 

I know when im done shedding my salt water until my eyes can’t open in the morning, 

the only option I have is to cry again 


because I know this is only for a moment 

until you get up, refresh you mind then start again 


And again and again and again and again until you forget how not to understand 

the realm we are in

 

numb is excepting defeat and not gaining knowledge for what you know……

 Masks come off after realizing that nothing last forever 

just like the weather in Florida, a friend or a foe 


What a lesson, what a blessing huh?….. 

no longer able to only feel….but understand…. 

we are not addicted to a temporary forever

we are addicted to the warm blankets in the cold blizzard snow


talk about it 


substances don't fix spiritual embalances
 

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